Pain… anger… betrayal… Those are the moments I find myself
at my lowest.
Those are also the
moments God uses to remind me of Him.
It’s in the storms of my life that I have found God. The
moments where I am broken and crying out to Him, asking for release, asking for
help, or even blaming Him are the moments He carries me. He meets me where I am
at. He knows how I feel and can take those problems.
I realize how lucky I am to have a perfect God as my friend
and Father. I can turn to Him at any point. Even when I am hurt by those I considered
to be my closest friends, He is always there, waiting for me to fall into His
arms where I belong.
People will always fail you. No one is perfect, every person
you let yourself open up to will hurt you. You will hurt others. It’s in the
nature of being human. Relationships fail, friendships end, families break up. It
is unfortunately the reality of this world. As soon as sin entered the world,
the perfect relationships we were made to have were broken. We are still
relational beings, and we still strive to have that perfection, but it doesn’t
happen. Not with other humans.
The only One who can love us perfectly, who can fulfill our
need for this kind of relationship is God. He is the only One who will be behind
you every time you turn around. He is the only One who will never betray or
hurt you.
I’m not saying that we shouldn’t have relationships with
other people. We were made to. But we shouldn’t put our all into other people.
That is only a way to get hurt. If you have a friendship or relationship where
you think you’ll never get hurt, you’re wrong. You have to be aware that other
people are as imperfect as you are.
We have to be forgiving as well. Knowing that others are the
same as you, you know you’ll get hurt. But you have to be compassionate. Look
at Stephen in Acts 7. As he was being stoned by those around him, he cries out
to God. And he doesn’t ask to be saved or for God to take revenge on those killing
him. He says, “Lord, do not hold this sin
against them.” I want to be like this. I hold grudges when someone hurts me
deeply. I want to see them hurt like I was. This is so wrong on my part. Christ
died for me out of love, and I am supposed to show that love to others. How am
I supposed to be like Him when I have this in my heart?
The only way to make a change in this aspect is to cling to
Christ. To learn from Him. He is the only perfect person and I need to see my
relationships with others through His eyes.
I get so tired of being hurt by others. So many time I just
want to give up on others; to just isolate myself so I can’t be hurt once again
and so I can’t hurt anyone else either. But I can’t do that and show Christ to the world. I just
cannot do both.
There are things that are so much more important than my
personal pain. Yes, I know I’ll get hurt. But I also know that I have God to
turn to when I am.
No person can hurt me any more than God can heal me, and I have
to trust in that. I have to know that when I am feeling alone, betrayed and
abandoned that God is right there, taking care of me in ways I never even
imagined.
So it doesn’t matter what people do to me. I will always
have Him to fall back on. And I will always trust in that.
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